quietmindshq

Fifteen years ago, I had my very first thought of starting a blog and making it public. It wasn’t an unusual thought, after all, I was eleven years old and most of the girls in my year were starting blogs or creating new social media accounts to post specific content. I talked myself out of the idea really quickly because the content wasn’t going to be the same, or even remotely similar, to the content the girls my age were posting. For them, it was about beauty, fashion and skincare. For me, however, it was about promoting awareness of the impact of poor mental health on young people, the stigma that they go through when they are struggling and what the presentation of mental illnesses in young people may look like.
But why the interest in such a deep topic at eleven when my peers were interested in age-appropriate things?
The reason for the interest is the same as the reason for starting this blog: I wanted to help other young people who felt the same as I did.

As a child, I began to experience a sadness so deep and unforgivingly persistent that I thought it was truly killing me. The thoughts to end my life started when I was six years old, self-harm began at seven and food restriction and purging became more prominent at eight. A situation at school when I was nine meant that my secret self-harming was brought to their attention, and duty of care meant that they had to inform both of my parents and social services. My GP referred me for psychiatric input not long after this came to light. After a few months of meetings and appointments with a few psychiatrists, I was prescribed my first antidepressant (fluoxetine) at age ten. Now, almost sixteen years later, I’m still openly battling the thoughts and behaviours I created as a child to keep myself safe.

Some people might say, “Why now?” or “Why bother?” and my answer remains the same as it did back then: I want to help other young people who feel the same way I did. The difference between now and then, however, is simply time, experience and knowledge.

As a now twenty-five-year-old adult, I want everyone to know that your mental health matters. Your feelings, symptoms, behaviours and reactions are valid. I’ve been there: a young adult whose poor mental health was dismissed so chronically by professionals that further issues and disorders developed. I see you, and I want you to feel empowered to fight for the recovery that you do deserve.

What will my content involve?
I want to explain what’s happening chemically inside the brains of those with certain psychological disorders + neurodevelopmental conditions. I’ll mainly discuss disorders and conditions I have been professionally diagnosed with, however, I want to raise awareness for mental health in general.
I want to promote positive habits, techniques, and strategies I have discovered through my two-decade-long, and still ongoing, battles.
I want to promote a way of thinking that I find and believe others (not all) may also find helpful.

You. Matter.
Your. Mind. Matters.
I am Krose𓅨.
Sending love,
quietmindshq.